MY LIFE
I was on autopilot, I was half asleep, hoping for the best – I was unaware….now I am awake, I am present, I’m slowing down and showing up
I was waiting for someday (working life in)……now I am living the moments as they happen
I was paralyzed/overwhelmed by the self imposed burden of trying to fix everything….I am comfortable and committed to only fixing the essential things
I was avoiding the possibility of having regrets or failures…I am failing forward
I was living the questions….now I am reframing the questions, changing my perspective, enjoying the search for better questions

MY LEADERSHIP
I was so hard on myself, I was beating myself up, I was relentlessly unimpressed with myself …..I am out of the hotseat, I am less judgmental, I am silencing the critic inside
I was aspiring to sacrifice/to go without, I was a martyr…..I am embracing starting with Me first, Me second, Me third
I was leading by example (but using mostly muscle/force) – I am leading with finesse/power (confident that muscle is there if/only if I need it)…I am leading with purpose
I was certain/secure with my leadership style….I am comfortable growing, evolving into something better
I was content, developing horizontally – I am seeking adaptive learning, thirsty for continuous upgrades
I was looking for meaning behind my creativity…now I am using my gifts to bring light to the darkest corners
I was assuming “alignment” with priorities….now I’m checking-in & I am living it more on purpose
I was working from a to-do lists….I am leading by MY to-die-for list

MY WEAKNESS
I was consumed by/at the mercy of/a victim of – my addiction to affirmation, attention, acceptance…I am shifting the balance of power to be in my favor
I was begging for her attention & blaming her…..now I am fixing me and encouraging her
I was frozen with the fear that she could do better(than a guy like me)….I am giving myself more reasons to NOT believe that’s true
I was unlikely to be messy or broken…I am more transparent, more authentic and more vulnerable
I was sure that I was way cooler when I was 20… I am realizing at 41+ that I’m enjoying the consistency of how I feel about myself when I’m with my friends who “knew me when” AND my friends who “know me now”

MY TAKEAWAY
I was running fast, unsure I was even on the right road….now I am starting way closer to the finish line (even though we all know there is no finishline)